On The Road Again – a confession

When you’re traveling and you’re not planning ahead aka you just go with the flow then you give yourself and your life the opportunity to flow wherever it may want and need.

This is what we decided to do. We kind of had a plan in mind but didn’t plan ahead in details. The only thing we knew was that I had to be in Chiang Mai by the 9th of October for my Thai Massage Course. We also decided not to move around a lot to save money and this way we could soak up the culture of the country where we were.

Staying in one place gives you the opportunity to settle down a bit and establish some sort of habit into your life. In Chiang Mai, we found our favourite cafe and we also made friends with the owners. A lovely Thai couple who put their heart into their business. It was a beautiful experience to see someone working with passion. I guess when you do what you love it isn’t really a job, right?!

On the other hand, you have to make sure you keep yourself busy otherwise you get bored. I mean really bored.

I’m the kind of person who has to have some sort of system to my day, otherwise I can end up basically doing nothing. My course kept me busy in the mornings until 4 but then for the rest of the day and for the weekends I was free.

My dad passed away 3 weeks prior to our trip so I left Europe with a confused heart. Shall I stay? Could I help if I stayed? I’d been waiting for this trip with so much excitement and all of a sudden it left me worrying.

With a broken heart but I decided to leave. Originally I thought of this trip as a much needed break from life, to recharge and refocus. It’s hard to admit but I was a bit depressed, life sometimes felt like a struggle. Then with my dad’s passing away so suddenly my whole world turned upside down. Many things that were so important before didn’t matter anymore. I questioned and keep questioning many things in life since that day. It dawned on me that tomorrow is not promised. The things I’ve been postponing for fear, for low self-esteem or for whatever reason all of a sudden came up to the surface with a sense of urgency to act upon.

My aspirations for this life became clearer and although I don’t know how to get to the life I want to live, I knew I had to start taking some steps. Waiting and sitting around won’t make dreams come true. You have to put in time and effort. You have to be willing to sacrifice and work for it. You have to be willing to fall and get back up.

The trip that was gonna be a long holiday all of a sudden became a journey of self-discovery, soul-searching. It’s a graceful opportunity from life. I’m given all the time to focus on myself so when I come back to Europe I can come back stronger, braver and with my cup full to help others.

This is what I always wanted: to serve people, to make this world a better place, a more loving, caring and mindful place.

This, I know, won’t happen from one day to another. I have to first grow and invest into myself:

• I started a Life Coaching course to understand myself and become clear about my intentions and reasons.

• I’m exercising every day now to grow stronger mentally and physically.

• I have to face my bad habits, the painful emotions that pop up uninvited and be willing and open to deal with them.

• I have to accept that life doesn’t work out itself sometimes the way I imagined. I either accept this and let go or I have to be dragged by the bags on my back.

I’m grateful for this “free” time I was given to travel, to self-discover, to learn and grow. It’s always up to us what we make time for. It’s always up to us what we make of this life and of our dreams. Do we make them reality or do we sit around day-dreaming about the life we really want.

You’re graced for your race!

Share Your Bliss

I’ve read something just now and it touched something deep down in me. I’ve heard the words before many times, and I always knew what they meant or at least what they were supposed to mean. For some reason today was the day when it touched something in my heart. I’d like to share them with you, who knows, maybe today is the day for you as well when it all makes sense:


My heart like fingers played the words on the piano keys and the whole melody just made sense.

It all dawned on me: I’m so scared to play big and go after my dreams. I tend to overthink and over-analyze everything. I think I’m a wizard, who can foretell the future.  I like to play it safe and I like to keep my talents hidden. I play it small so I don’t have to fall straight on to my face. Who likes to be vulnerable? It’s such an ugly sight when I fall, and it’s such a heart breaking experience picking up the pieces and cleaning up the mess. I think it’s all in my head. I decide with my head, when it’s a matter of the heart. I need to believe in myself, I need to believe that I can, I need to follow that sparkle. I need to give myself permission to come out of my turtle shell and show my true self.

We’re all born to this world for a reason, we have many unique talents, and we all have greatness in us. Things were not meant to be easy, let me tell you. Many times we are tested. Many times we bump into close doors, or worst, doors are slammed into our face. But, that’s all fine. Maybe that door wasn’t meant to open for us because there was something else, something greater waiting for us further down the road. If you give up and settle for less, you’ll never know what’s your talent, what’s your bliss, what are those things that make you shine and sparkle.

Be grateful for closed doors — @Edinburgh. picture by me

We need to keep going, and when we find something that makes us shine, we need to rock that and we need to share that. This whole life only makes sense when we share our bliss with others, when we share that bit of sparkle with others so we can shine together. At the end of the day, I think, that’s all that matters. Please don’t settle for less, and don’t give up the search, we need what you have inside you. Don’t hide from this world. Open up! Share your inner beauty with us!

— write it –sing it –draw it –design it –dance it –create it –cook it –bake it –swim it –run it –speak it –yoga it — massage it — build it –sew it –teach it –pray it –any ways you can, whatever is your way, just share it!

One of my favorite place on this planet: @island of Lombok, Indonesia. picture by me


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Much Love!

I’ve been spending quite a lot of time this week in the kitchen, in the gym and in the yoga studio. Hubby’s been away, so I had all the time to myself this week. It was a fun and active week, but I think I pushed past my limit and my body’s craving for rest. I was gonna go to the gym this evening but I’ve decided to stay home, chill and write this new blog post instead.

In my last blog post [ What Fit Means to Me ] I was telling you about what Fit means to me, and how my life’s changed for the better since I regularly exercise, practice yoga and try to eat consciously. So, here it continues.



This fit lifestyle keeps teaching me patience every day. We want results Now, and we get so discouraged when we don’t see the results we had in mind. I think most of the time this is the very reason why people give up. Even after a year and a half, I’m still not there where I want to be. To be honest, I thought I would be there in 3-6 months. I disheartened many times, I was on the verge of giving up a couple of times. But I always realize, I’m not doing this for the six packs or the nice perky butt (although would be nice to have them, and hopefully  will do one day soon).


@ Tribe Yoga Studio – chilling between a power yoga and a yin yoga class


I’m doing this because I love the post-bliss-state exercise and yoga put me. I love feeling strong and I love seeing even the tiniest results. All these keep me going and coming back for more.

Fit also taught me to be confident and comfortable in my body. To be happy in your body doesn’t depend on the size of the dress you wear, or the number your scale shows. Confidence and happiness radiate from inside. It’s a feeling of being healthy and active. And, I’m very positive that this can only be achieved through an active lifestyle. I’m not saying you have to go to the gym and do weights, or run 10 K every day… You have to find your own way of healthy and active, your own way of fit. For me, it’s a mix of yoga, hardcore training, where I can push myself to and over my limits (like bbg, insanity, bodyrock, weights training) and eating as healthy as possible.


Post-yoga-bliss selfie from this week

Fit showed me the importance of balance. You can’t keep pushing yourself and training every day. Your body, mind, spirit need rest days. Your muscles need to recover. There were times, and I’m still struggling with this, when I’d feel bad about having a rest day. This is when I need to remind myself that loving my body is not just about being active and pushing it but also about giving my body the rest it deserves.

Also, you can’t eat clean all the time. You need those cheat meals, you need those treats sometimes. I have the sweetest tooth ever and I had to discover a way that works for me to keep it in balance. My way of balancing it is making my own raw, vegan treats. Like this I know all the ingredients that go in there. I make a batch for the week ahead, and I know whenever I feel like having something sweet, it’s there waiting for me in the fridge.


Hungry? Raw, Vegan Snickers Bars to keep my sweet tooth in balance

I could write pages and pages about what this lifestyle has taught me so far. It keeps teaching me every day something new about myself, relationships and the world. I’ll be back soon to share more of my experiences.

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Much Love to you all!

What Fit means to me?

To me, being fit is not only a physical but also a mental, and sort of spiritual state.
It’s the journey of learning to listen to my body, loving it and taking care of it.
To me, fit is accepting my limits and pushing through them. To me, fit is being in balance and in harmony. It’s a real chill pill, a happiness accelerator and a gratitude generator.


Physical exercise has always been there for me as a clutch: in the midst of a distorted self-image during my teenage years, struggling with a slight eating disorder, through break-ups, heart aches, vogue ambitions, through low tides and high tides.

Physical exercise, together hand in hand with yoga now, still plays a massive role in my life. It keeps me sane and grounded. It gives me a healthy self-esteem and self-image.
My concept of fit has changed in the last one and a half years, though. Something switched in me, now I work out because I love my body, and not because I’m unhappy with it. And,  yes, it’s really the best therapy life can can offer.

I’ve learnt as well that fit doesn’t exist without eating healthy.  Nourishing your body with real food, will also nourish your mind and soul. I think self education is the key to understand what we put in our body as the food industry definitely does its best to hide the truth about certain ingredients. You have to do your research and reading. You have to experiment with ingredients to find out what works best for your body. You can’t eat clean all the time, cheat meals are essential, I believe, to achieve balance.


(Although, I’m not vegan, I love making raw and vegan treats such as the above *raw carrot cake* )

From my experience, it’s a transition of months and years to find a healthy lifestyle that you can maintain. In order to make healthy choices, and to make those choices out of love and respect towards yourself and that you wouldn’t take those choices as restrictions,  you have to recondition your mind about eating.


More to come about my Fit journey, about my whole happy life in my next post. If you’ve got any questions please ask. I’d be so happy to answer all your questions.


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**All pictures were made by me, quotes from pinterest

Here’s to the dreamers

Have you ever felt like you’re just running around in circles while trying to figure out what you’re meant to do with your life? You feel the call, you know there has to be something more to this life but you just can’t figure out what it is, and what the next step would be. After all these year I feel like I have some of the pieces of the puzzle but I cannot put the picture together:

I want to help people, I feel very strong about human rights, equality and justice, I love creative vibes, I’m in love with textiles and patterns, I enjoy writing and finding creative channels through which I can express the world inside me, I love healthy and organic stuff, travelling makes me feel alive, yoga and exercise help me to connect to myself…

Sometimes I feel stuck and annoyed wishing I had certain skills, because for sure if I had those skills I would be able to figure out my purpose; or if I did this or that course to gain this and that skill, for sure I would be able to put my life’s puzzle together.

Do you ever feel envy or happy for people who seem to be on the right track? I never felt envy, thanks goodness, and I’m very grateful for that! Others’ success stories make me happy and they inspire me. They show me that indeed it is possible. Dreams do come true. But then again I’m back to step 1.

I think most of the time we are looking for solutions outside and we forget to look inwards. Everything we are looking for, all the answers are already inside of us, we already have everything we need in order to achieve great things. I think deep inside we know what we need to do to get out of the vicious circle, we are just afraid to do the first step. We’re afraid of falling, failing and taking risks. There’s no such thing as taking a step towards the wrong direction. The first step might not take you straight to your dreams but for sure it is taking you towards it. As someone said it is the journey that counts. The small steps you take towards your goals and dreams, they all count.


So here it is to all the dreamers like me: don’t just dream, believe as well that one day the BIG dream will come true. Dare to make the first step however small that step is. Listen to the voice that says “Yes, you can!” and ignore the voices that say it is impossible. We’re all born here with a purpose, that’s for sure I know, and we can achieve incredible things.

(picture from pinterest)

Let your light shine 

We’re born to this life with different talents to make the most of this beautiful life; so don’t worry no one can steal your shine.You’re the only one responsible for your own thoughts and actions. But the ultimate goal we all share is to bless others with our shine.

Overcoming Bad Habits – BYN 2.

Beautify Your Nails, 2nd part

A week ago I wrote about overcoming bad habits (post: “Beautify Your Nails”), and my habit of nail biting.
Another week, actually a week and a half passed since then and my nails are still long. We went grocery shopping today and I wandered away and found myself in the beauty section (what a coincidence). When I saw this orange nail polish I knew it was the One. Don’t ask me why, I guess I just wanted a vivid color that reminds me of summer. Because it’s still so cold outside. I can’t wait for spring to come. And, it does the job perfectly, my nails cheer me up just by looking at them.

As I said, it’s so important to celebrate even the tiniest achievement. It gives you enough strength to go on and overcome the next obstacle. I was celebrating this time with buying a new nail polish and more selfies.

Here’s my recipe for success: (hope you find it useful)

1. Pay attention and understand: The most essential thing to overcome bad habits, I find, is paying close attention to yourself to understand your habit. Let’s stick to my nail biting. I always try to catch myself in the moment and understand what has just happened that triggered the necessity of my biting my nails. In my case I find it’s stress, worrying and so much more. If I can catch myself in the midst of my thoughts and become conscious of my action just when it’s about to happen I know I have a very good chance to prevent my nail biting. It’s a matter of seconds, let me tell you.

2. Change your thoughts: You can always change your thoughts, your thought pattern. By changing it you ultimately change your mood and the way you feel in your body. “Peace is a thought away!”

3. Love yourself: Never punish yourself! Doesn’t matter if you fail, what matters is that you get back up and try again. Tomorrow is a new day. Love and accept yourself, and work from this place of tranquility to change whatever needs to be changed in your life.

4. Stay positive and motivated: I love Oprah and her interviews. They give me so much inspiration and motivation to go on and follow my path. I like walking to work. It takes me about 30 minutes, those 30 minutes give me the perfect opportunity to listen to such life and world view changing interviews, and you do some exercise at the same time. 😉 The other day I was listening to her interview with Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, a Harvard-trained neuroscientist, about her book “My Stroke of Insight.” It’s a very interesting interview about her having a stroke and her life afterwards. She says here that “peace is a thought away,” and it just stroke something inside me. Here’s the link if you’re interested:

I always make sure to listen to or read such inspirational interviews. They help me stay positive and motivated.

5. Get active: I also find physical exercise useful when it comes to bad habits. I believe physical exercise as such gives you a healthy self-esteem, positive energy and positive thoughts that help you overcome the lows and stay strong.

6.Talk about it: Talk with your friends, your parents. If you feel like you need an outsider’s opinion there are so many platforms out there where you can find people with the same issues. Sharing and talking about it with others may give you a different perspective. If you can’t share it with the world, share it with yourself, write it down on a piece of paper.

7. Write about it: Write down the pros and contras of your habit. Why are you so afraid to let go of the habit? What’s withholding you to change? How would life be once you overcome the habit? Seeing the pros and contras will give you a deep insight, but be very honest with yourself.

8. Visualize: (this should have come at the very top of my list) Visualize the new, happier you!

Good luck all’ya beautiful people! We can do it!

Don’t settle for ordinary

Don’t settle for ordinary, when you can do and be extraordinary. To be more precise: You Are Already Extraordinary!

The greatest and happiest moments come in life when you see progress in whatever you do. It’s hard to move out of your comfort zone, but once you do you realize what you are capable of.

Once you’ve decided what that thing is you want to improve in your life, the most difficult thing probably is to take the first step. You need determination. Most of the time, I find myself procrastinating things, waiting for the right moment to come. What I realized is that there’s no perfect moment for things. You have to create the perfect moment and the perfect moment is the now. Just do it, don’t wait for tomorrow or next week.

Once you’ve taken the first step, you need to make a habit out of it. This, I find, requires even more determination, commitment and consistency. I really think the key to success is habit. Whether it’s a physical activity, a creative or a spiritual one, you need to find time and practice it on a daily basis.

There will be days when you feel like giving up. In moments like this, I take a deep breath and try to remember why I started  the journey. In low, uninspired moments I like reading through my diary, where I put down all my goals and aspirations. I also find vision boards very useful (I can’t emphasize the importance of vision board enough). They are there to guide you and remind you of your goals.

Sometimes we are in doubt whether or not we are enough to accomplish our goals. I think doubt (in a small amount) is a good thing. It makes you want to reevaluate the road to take towards your goal. It makes you want to come up with more ideas. But you have to remember: you have everything in you to achieve your dreams and goals. Don’t look outside, Don’t compare with others. Look inside, dig deep and believe! Give yourself time and work hard for it.

You and the Journey

The amazing experience of travelling–

Our trip is coming  to an end soon. We have only a few more days left in Tropical Paradise. We had a long way to go; it started with a cultural shock in Bangkok and it’s ending in Bali with a creative awakening. When I think about leaving and going back to “reality” my heart is breaking. I feel like a part of me wants to stay and keep on traveling. The weird thing is that It’s not like I don’t wanna go back to my life, it’s that I want to stay. I want to experience more, see more, learn more about the world we’re living in.

The pieces you leave behind of your heart wherever you go, are pieces of the “old” you, and the memories, the experiences you take with you fill those empty spaces in you, turning you into someone “new.”

When you travel something magical happens to you. You see and experience so many new things that you’re changed irrevocably. Most of the time change comes gently and gradually but sometimes in a shocking instant of a blink of an eye. But it always comes. Your world, your perspective of things, people and of yourself change. You become as light as a feather, you don’t worry about life, you just live in the moment and you always try to make the best of your day.

When you travel, life becomes simple. You just go with the flow, and it’s rejuvenating for the soul. You discover so many new things about you and you realise you “are not just a drop in the ocean, you are the ocean in the drop.” The physical trip turns into a spiritual journey as well.

Do we need to travel hundreds and thousands of miles/kilometres to lose and find ourselves, to feel alive on such a huge scale? Can we find it in our everyday life?

I know I have to go back, so there’s no need fighting it, that would only result in suffering. It’s time now to count my blessings, and enjoy what’s left of this trip. I’m so grateful for this life! And, when I’m back… Well, I know I’ll need to go back to a routine but I’m hoping I can go along with my new plans and start something with this huge creative energy I’ve found on this island.

In the meantime, always have an attitude of gratitude, dream, visualise and believe in yourself! Oh, and Get creative to Be creative!

All you need is a little faith

There are times in life when you don’t know where you’re life is heading to. You have dreams, plans, personal and work related aspirations buried deep inside you but on the surface you feel stuck. You feel stuck and don’t know which way to go. The only feeling that decribes your life is the word ‘OK.’ Do we really wanna live a life that is only OK?!? Do we really wanna give up all those dreams, aspirations just to feel safe and secure in our OK life, when we could have a life we LOVE. 

I’m not saying that you can’t like your OK life; there are moments, days, weeks, or even months when you feel good in that life. But, I’m also sure at the end of the day you want more than an ‘ok’ out of life. You feel like something is missing. Your soul yearns for more.

When you reach this stagnating stage in life, that is when you need faith, get active and take the very first step

Get a piece of paper and organise your life! This is the time when you need to dream big, when I say big I mean supa-BIG. Don’t limitate yourself to your present circumstances. Dream and imagine great things, dig deep inside your soul, find the things that drive you, that motivate and inspire you. Grab a piece of paper, your diary or your laptop and start jotting down whatever comes to your mind when you think of a fulfilled life.

Then categorise! You can categorise in so many different ways, just use your imagination. I use the categories: Family, Finances, Inner qualities, Health/Spirituality, Personal Stuff, Travel etc… You can do sections such as: •short •mid and •long term plans. I also have a special page for business and work ideas, where I write down even ideas that seem so crazy, so out-of-reach.

Prepare your visionboard! Visionboards are awesome and I truly believe that they work. I haven’t done mine yet for this year as I’ve been traveling for 5 weeks now, but as soon as I get back I’ll definitely do the one for 2015. I’ve been making visionboards for 3 or 4 years now. They always worked for me. The most essential part is that you need to be very specific (in my next blog I’ll tell you why – you’ll be amazed just as much as I was;). The other important thing is to hang it somewhere where you can see it. I always hang it up in front of my bed to make sure I see it. 

Visualise! Visualisation is like daydreaming. Do it every day, at least once a day (10-15 minutes). Visualise that new job you’d like to get, that trip of a lifetime, that healthy beachbody you wanna achieve. Try to imagine the colours, the smell, the sensation. Imagine how awesome it feels to be on that white sandy beach, how happy you’re to go to work every morning. When I visualise I always end up smiling because it makes me happy be in that ‘dream.’ You know what they say: “if you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.” And, Practice, practice and practice!

When you do your list, quiet the chitty chatty nonsense of your mind and listen to your heart! Even if you don’t know at this stage what is missing in your life, even if you think you’re not strong or brave enough to do the first step, even if you don’t know what that first step is or how you could reach those goals. Just write, write down everything. I like running for this very reason, it quiets my mind and opens it up to higher, creative vibes. I feel more connected to nature and to myself when running. Find what works for you, maybe it’s yoga, maybe it’s dancing, painting, sitting outside in nature, you name it, the list is endless.

Dream big, visualise and life will take care of the rest. Most importantly have a little faith. Have faith that you can have a life you love, that you deserve it. Giving up on your dreams is like giving up on yourself. Giving up faith is like giving up on life. Be honest with yourself and take time to get to know yourself and what you really want.

Living the life you love doesn’t mean you won’t have problems or you won’t meet obstacles. You will, ups and downs are part of life, they make life interesting. But you’ll feel like you have wings to easier overcome those obstacles because you know where you’re heading to. Obstacles and problems won’t be obstacles and problems anymore they will be just another step towards achieving your dreams.

So, dare to dream big and have a little faith!

Oh, and the most important thing: always be grateful for what you have and how far you’ve come, and give something back to the world! Give, give, give. Give with all your heart, sincerely, as much as you can.